Chapter 2: The Woman My Father Thought He Knew
“Emma, please lower your voice.””
My father's words landed harder than Vanessa's slap.
I stood near the front door, my cheek burning and my suitcase abandoned beside my feet, while Dad looked at me with the exhausted expression he usually reserved for problems at work.
Problems.
That was what I had become in the space of a few minutes.
“Dad, she hit me.””
Vanessa made a small, wounded sound against his chest.
“Oh, David.””
He looked at her.
“Vanessa?””
She shook her head slowly.
“I didn't hit her.””
I stared at her.
“What?””
Vanessa pulled away from Dad and wiped her eyes with a tissue. She looked so fragile that someone passing by might have thought a strong wind could knock her over.
“Emma became upset when I asked her to start contributing to the household,” she explained.
“I told her that she couldn't keep living here without helping with the expenses. She said some horrible things, and then she started shouting.””
“That's not what happened!”” I said.
Dad raised one hand.
“Emma, let her finish.””
I went silent.
Not because I wanted to.
Because I had spent my entire life believing that if I told my father the truth, he would listen.
Now he was asking me to wait while the person who had just struck me explained why I deserved it.
Vanessa dabbed her eyes.
“She told me she didn't need to listen to me because I'm not her real mother. Then she said she was leaving. I tried to calm her down, but she became aggressive.””
I shook my head.
“Dad, she demanded two thousand dollars from me!””
Dad turned toward me.
“What?””
“Two thousand dollars every month. She said I had to pay her or get out.””
Vanessa pressed a hand to her chest.
“I asked her to contribute to groceries and utilities. That's all.””
“No! You said two thousand dollars!””
“Emma,” Dad said quietly, “that's a lot of money.””
“I know! That's why I said no!””
He looked between us.
I watched the uncertainty spread across his face.
It wasn't that he didn't love me. I knew he did.
But Vanessa had become very good at choosing the right moments to make herself look reasonable and me look unstable.
Whenever Dad came home, the house was spotless. Dinner was ready. Soft music played in the kitchen. Vanessa greeted him with a kiss and asked about his day.
If I tried to tell him about an argument, she would sigh and say I was still struggling with my mother's death.
If I became upset, she would suggest that perhaps I needed more time to adjust to her being part of the family.
And if Dad questioned her, she would quietly remind him how hard she worked to keep the household together.
She never needed to shout.
She simply made him feel guilty for doubting her.
“Dad,” I said, forcing myself to speak calmly, “look at my face.””
I turned my cheek toward him.
He frowned.
“What happened?””
“Vanessa slapped me.””
Vanessa immediately stepped forward.
“David, look at her. She's trying to make you choose between us.””
I stared at her in disbelief.
“You actually hit me!””
“Enough!”” Dad snapped.
I flinched.
He rarely raised his voice at me.
Vanessa reached for his hand.
“I don't want to fight with your daughter,” she said.
“I've tried so hard to make this work. But I can't keep living in a house where every conversation becomes a battle.””
Dad rubbed his forehead.
“Vanessa, nobody is asking you to do that.””
“Then please tell her to stop attacking me.””
I felt something inside me crack.
“I'm not attacking you! You're the one who—”
“Emma!”” Dad shouted.
I fell silent.
For a moment, the only sound in the hallway was rain hitting the windows.
Dad looked at me with disappointment.
“Go upstairs. We'll talk when everyone has calmed down.””
I couldn't believe it.
“You're sending me to my room?””
“I'm asking you to give us a few minutes.””
“Dad, she told me I don't belong in this family.””
His face softened slightly.
“I'm sure she didn't mean it that way.””
Vanessa lowered her gaze.
I watched her press her lips together to hide what looked suspiciously like satisfaction.
“She said I was a burden,” I continued.
“She said I remind you of Mom and that you don't want to deal with me.””
Dad's expression changed.
“Vanessa, did you say that?””
She looked genuinely startled.
“Of course not.””
“You did!”” I cried.
“Emma, please.”” Vanessa's voice trembled.
“Your father is exhausted. Why are you doing this to him?””
I looked at Dad.
He was still wearing the navy tie he had worn to his meeting that morning. There were shadows beneath his eyes. His briefcase lay open near the door, a folder of contracts spilling onto the floor.
He looked tired.
And Vanessa knew it.
She had waited until he was tired to turn me into the problem.
“Dad,” I whispered, “please believe me.””
He approached me slowly.
“Emma, I love you. You know that.””
“Then believe me.””
“I need both of you to calm down before I can understand what happened.””
“But I already told you!””
“And Vanessa has told me something different.””
“So you think I'm lying?””
He hesitated.
It lasted less than a second.
But I saw it.
That tiny pause was enough.
My father, the man who had held my hand at my mother's funeral, the man who used to tell me that honesty was the most important thing a person could have, was considering the possibility that I had invented being slapped.
I stepped back.
“I can't believe this.””
“Emma, don't make this worse.””
I laughed through my tears.
“Make what worse? The fact that she hit me?””
Vanessa covered her mouth.
“David, I can't do this anymore.””
She turned away dramatically and walked toward the staircase.
“I need some air.””
“Vanessa, wait,” Dad said.
She stopped on the first step.
“I've spent three years trying to make Emma comfortable. I've bought her gifts. I've cooked for her.
I've included her in every family occasion. And somehow, I'm still the villain.””
She looked down at me.
“Maybe she will finally be happy when I'm gone.””
Then she climbed the stairs.
Dad watched her disappear around the corner.
I stood in the hallway, waiting for him to turn back toward me.
Waiting for him to say that he knew me better than this.
Waiting for him to ask whether I was hurt.
Instead, he picked up his briefcase.
“Emma, you need to apologize.””
The words were so unexpected that I actually blinked.
“I'm sorry?””
“You heard me. Whatever happened, you shouldn't have shouted at Vanessa like that.””
I stared at him.
“She slapped me.””
“And I will deal with that if it's true.””
“If it's true?””
He closed his eyes briefly.
“Please don't put me in this position.””
I looked at the man standing in front of me.
My father had spent years teaching me never to let anyone make me feel small.
Yet here he was, asking me to shrink myself to keep his marriage comfortable.
“I'm not putting you in any position,” I whispered.
“She did that herself.””
I turned toward the stairs.
“Where are you going?”” Dad asked.
“To my room.””
“Emma.””
I stopped.
He seemed to struggle with what he wanted to say.
“Don't pack your things. Nobody is asking you to leave tonight.””
I looked back at him.
“Vanessa was.””
He had no answer.
I walked upstairs, passed the framed wedding photograph hanging on the wall, and entered my bedroom.
The room smelled faintly of lavender detergent. My mother's old quilt still covered the bed, although Vanessa had suggested several times that it would look better stored away.
I closed the door and leaned against it.
Then I slid to the floor and cried.
I cried for the slap.
I cried because my father hadn't believed me.
And I cried because I suddenly understood that Vanessa wasn't merely trying to make me uncomfortable.
She wanted me gone.
Not next month.
Not when I found an apartment.
She wanted every reminder of my mother's life erased from this house, and I was the last reminder she couldn't replace with expensive furniture.
After a while, I wiped my face and stood.
My cheek had swollen slightly. A red mark was beginning to form beneath my eye.
I took a photograph with my phone.
Then another.
I didn't know why I did it. Maybe some part of me understood that if I couldn't make Dad believe my words, I needed proof that didn't depend on how convincingly I could cry.
I opened my bedroom closet and reached for a small cardboard box on the top shelf.
Inside were old photographs, birthday cards, and a few things Mom had saved from my childhood.
At the bottom sat a faded brown teddy bear with one button eye slightly larger than the other.
His name was Theodore.
Mom had given him to me when I was five, after I woke from a nightmare about being lost in a crowded shopping mall.
I had carried him everywhere for years.
When I turned sixteen, Mom became seriously ill. During one of her hospital stays, she gave Theodore back to me after I had left him on a chair beside her bed.
“Keep him safe for me,” she had whispered.
I had hugged him so tightly that his old fabric smelled like the hospital's clean cotton sheets for days.
After Mom died, I couldn't bear to put him away.
Dad had offered to buy me a new stuffed animal, but I refused.
There was no replacing Theodore.
I carried him to the bed and sat down.
As I brushed a strand of hair away from his stitched forehead, I remembered something I hadn't thought about in years.
When I was seventeen, Dad had given me a small home-security camera for my bedroom after someone broke into our garage. I had become fascinated with the technology and started helping him test different devices.
One weekend, I had found a tiny experimental camera module among the equipment Dad had brought home from work.
It was a prototype designed by one of his company's security contractors.
I had joked about hiding it inside Theodore so I could catch my younger cousin sneaking cookies from my desk.
Dad had helped me install it.
We had tested it for an afternoon, laughing at the strange angles and the way Theodore's head tilted whenever I picked him up.
Later, Dad removed the memory card and disconnected the device.
Or at least, I thought he had.
The memory made me turn the bear over.
The stitching along his back looked slightly different from what I remembered.
I pressed my fingers against the fabric.
There was a small, firm shape inside.
My breath caught.
I turned Theodore toward the light.
Near the seam beneath his left ear, almost hidden by the worn fur, was a tiny black dot.
A lens.
I stared at it for several seconds.
Then I remembered something else.
A few weeks before Mom died, she had asked Dad to put Theodore somewhere safe while the hospital cleaners were replacing the furniture in her room.
Dad had brought the bear home.
He had placed it on my bedroom shelf and told me that Mom wanted it to stay there until she came back.
She never came back.
I swallowed hard.
Could the camera still work?
I remembered Dad saying the prototype had a rechargeable battery and could record locally to a small memory card. I also remembered that he had once joked the thing could capture a surprising amount of footage if nobody disturbed it.
I reached for my phone.
Before I could search for the device's model number, a notification appeared on the screen.
It was a message from my father.
Come downstairs. Vanessa says we need to settle this tonight.
I stared at the message.
Then I looked at Theodore.
A strange feeling crept over me.
For the first time since Vanessa had slapped me, I wasn't thinking about how to convince my father to believe me.
I was thinking about what might happen if I didn't have to convince him at all.
I carefully placed Theodore inside my hoodie pocket and stood.
As I opened my bedroom door, I heard Vanessa speaking downstairs.
Her voice was calm again.
Almost cheerful.
“Don't worry, David. Once Emma moves out, things can finally go back to normal.””
Then my father answered.
May you like
And the words he spoke made my blood run cold.
“I think you're right. Maybe it's time we asked her to leave.””